Some Blabber More..

Last night dinner with my cousin.. a few thoughts came up, which I have been thinking a lot lately for self improvement, became clearer & stronger further :

  • Confidence to look inside by being objective came from doing decently well at WORK – which is probably not Ideal or recommended but in my case it had to be via Work because it plays an extremely important role in my life.
  • Piush had alot to do with giving this confidence & then mentoring me to look further inside to become a better person – though his recommendations were from work aspects but its not surprising that exactly same qualities are required by me in current life – To be Analytical, Amiable ūüôā always..
  • Sneha’s constant response to my blabbers, traits, behaviours, words were more than helpful – Probably I am indebted to her for Life for this. I used to always think that am high on empathy, concern for others & outward looking while honestly I was only being selfish in all my pursuits by only expressing what I felt was right while ACTUALLY NOT realising what the other person is saying or wanting to say or means or feels. This has been a revelation of sorts to be equally if not more concerned about what the other person is saying, feeling, thinking, wanting.
  • Probably all my relationships have gone wrong at some points coz of my constant need to control & looking inward only – Mac, Rahul, Appy, Shweta Di, Nakul are a few I can think FirstHand.
  • Am not very good at Letting Go! It comes from Impatience, not trusting others to do the Right, not giving space – COMPLETE NO NO!
  • I was not very good at having difficult conversations – but have to learn the art of having a difficult conversation in a calm & peaceful way.
  • I did fear losing others and myself a lot – majorly Fear was making all the decisions which is not the Right way always! 


Random Musings 4th Feb 2017

Random Musings for a Weekend :
Some Friends Disappoint You – Let them!
You Do not get enough Appreciation at Work – Let it Be!
You Do not Find your Kind of People around – Be So!
You are not able to find time for your Passions & things you truly care – Not Cool!
You do not find enough strength to not repeat same mistakes – Not Good at all!
You get disappointed easily & require constant motivation – Disastrous!
You find something worth improving in yourself but do not find enough inspiration – Look inside further!
But do not be too Harsh upon yourself, everything is natural over here & let it flow – accept everything that comes along even the injustice, wrong-doings, rude behaviour. Speak/Express Out in whichever manner it comforts you but do not hurt yourself for long to make the dents permanent!
Let it heal, let it breathe space & comfort! Everything is good & will find its space soon.
Always remind yourself that at the end its the Mother Earth which will survive, we all are going to perish & be part of 5 elements of nature!

Goa Trip – December 2012

That was Goa for me in Dec12 … from 7th to 9th December..

Starting from the Aarambol beach we landed at – the food and lime fresh soda was awesum! The characters were amazing! A Juggler, a hippie who was organizing sessions on relationships (my friend told me about him), a man who was playing flute by the beach, a group of hippies doing meditation at the sunset..What do u have to say for that! Brilliant…is a small word and it is just starting to happen!

We head back from Arambol after the sunset and some shopping..Goto some clicking of each other..and the evening gets better! After having already ordered couple of drink and getting complimentary cigrattes, we meet 3 Hyd of them did all the talking and the other two occasional putting in a word or two..Whatever, we talked and discussed a possibility of attending David Guetta the next day..and decide to depart..BTW the “hummus” was addicting..

Next morning, after getting up late we(I hope I mentioned by we I mean San and me) go for the breakfast by the beach as decided. Now here is where the fun starts, San wants to drive the bike..and decides to take us both to Anjuna beach. Me, of course terrified initially with the idea, thought she was doing okay! And den at the parking, she finds the accelerator in place of brakes when it came to stopping the vehicle..! And Boom we go..We bump into an already parked scooter which happened to be of the stall owner next to us.. Now going by the Goan standards what came next was very much expected..They refused to let us go without paying 700 bucks!! All they had for a claim was a scratch (made before or after) on the handle..I was adamant Рno giving, San was her considerate best! But that later..

As we moved inside, we found an open place at the end of the market – must be serving terrible food (which we later experienced) as despite the great view, there was no audience! San too liked the place and we decided to eat there only. The view of the place just blew me away! It was straight out from movies..Clear sky, blue open sea with sun glittering and spreading the golden shimmering glow all over, eagles flying above the water making it a “breath taking view”! The food as expected was bad but the view and the breeze more than made up for it..


Going back where we left our incomplete fight – the man and his angry wife wanted the amount at all costs, so we decided that we will give as much the mechanic says. The man ¬†agreed and we left for (his own) mechanic. We knew he will make the mechanic say more or equal the amount! Still going after him, we saw a narrow lane to the right, which we had previously taken for our photo shots and I TURNED!! Hillarious it was, we went on going ahead and still imagining we might bump into him ahead decided to go far away to Fort Aguada! But amazingly bollywooddy it felt, Bhagam Bhag! ūüôā

Fort Aguada had some more nice moments to add, of course the drive was amazingly smooth and pleasant. Next to the fort was the lighthouse where we didn’t see any public going. We were (atleast I was)¬†skeptical¬†still decided to give it a shot..Took tickets, went up and found a great view to our waiting. One side was the Fort and the sea while the other side we had the Calangute Beach with its shacks and subjects..and a sun setting in between..Breeze was amazing! And we found ourselves deciding to wait till the Sunset (I think San decided coz she thought it was better than staying on the fort!) .. It was awesome..San decided to sleep..I was calm as meditating..We striked some nice conversation too!! All in all – another high point of our trip..

After returning, we decided to meet the guys again and go partying!! So one crazy night of party followed starting from 8pm and lasting till 7am..We began with a search for a nice place near Calangute/Baga for dinner and drinks..followed it up with ending up at shacks in Anjuna where various rounds of weed and tequila followed..I was high.. ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬†I wanted to go walking on the beach so I took Carlos and San alongwith me for the walk, another amazing scene I could capture in my mind – Pitch dark sky with sparkling stars, noisy sea and shadows of coconut treas! Wow…

We followed it up with a rave party where everyone was very much upto their behavior, reached hotel and crashed around 7:10am..

We woke up around ready and left for Vasco via Panji..Thanks to a local friend I connected with, who showed us an amazing bakery (yea, my love for food never dies), a great harbor view and a couple of nice churches..

The first one being around 400 years old, had a¬†cemetery¬†by its side! Spooky but then very quiet despite all the din coming from outside..The other church happened to be on an island on the outskirts which was connected by a bridge..When we reached there, we saw a funeral in procession, carols singing, sad relatives – another spooky moment! But as San said it – “how was it, that we happened to be there when the funeral of an unknown was happening, where the place just played a carol followed by the procession..” .. It seemed a little destined..

Goa Trip – Amazing you were to me! Thank you for happening..Come soon again!!

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