That VISION For Me!

Till I don’t achieve it!

Till I don’t remove everything that’s blocking me from achieving it…

Till I don’t make every change in my life to make that VISION a reality…

I won’t give it up…!

And achieving it while not letting your values dilute – is most essential!

That vision is me at peace, calm, happy, smiling, dressed in pastel shade indian clothes or loose western clothes with no fear, concern – just satisfied & positive for life ahead!


Taking my Own Path

Creating my own Path has been something I have known & practiced since age small. Being different, trying to be my own person – following what is acceptable to me as a human but also not coming anti – society has been something that have been extremely important to me & I have been proud of.

Be it my taste of music, food, clothes, choice of career, entertainment, hobbies, passion, people, friends, people around me – I have tried to be my own person & some have understood it. Though many I believe have silently appreciated it!

It has landed me somewhere – it has made me socially awkward or difficult to mix but I have let my humility & helpfulness guide me when faced with such situations.
Also it has made me more focussed to achieve my dreams – go from strength to strength!

But I feel I have found a great friend in me who tends to care for me & understands my past, present & future plus always edges me to achieve the best!

As I analyse my Way of Working more..

One thing very clear for me is that studying & giving exams did not come naturally to me as Sports & Theatre did or even other sort of extra curricular during my growing up years. Reason being the former seemed forced while the latter seemed like a flowing process in which one can choose to mould & shape.

However I must say I have reaped benefits from both though I still respond better to the latter as a form of learning & inspiration.

In terms of future as well – my way of interaction with other people moving up the path is ingrained in the basics of discipline (10%) but after that it is about mind allowed to flow free & mould, choose.


Sharing my list of most useful Apps (based on popularity, experience, usefulness) :

  • WhatsApp
  • Gmail
  • Twitter
  • Instagram
  • Amazon
  • Google Maps
  • Wikipedia
  • YouTube
  • Facebook
  • LinkedIn

Last two are my least favourite of all – they are just latching around for lack of options!

Will add more in due course

Its quite Peaceful Here… BUT

As am home of my parents in Dehradun, am feeling very peaceful – almost Zen with no wishes & no consequences concern whatsoever!

But its almost to the tune of being inactive which I detest quite – so I try & form a routine to please all around me including self which involves reading, taking a stroll, a physical activity, prepping for future as well.

But in the midst of my writing this blog, I did not estimate my father’s extreme temperament into records and so I will need to rattle a bit about it (more for the need to vent the same structurally). It so happens that he’s a product of the patriarchal family (though his mom & my grand-mom was an extremely strong & expressive lady) & has been given extreme importance for his immature & rash behaviours of the past. He did well academically & professionally on comparison in our family – so that gave further boost to his ego!

I do give a-lot of credit for my convent education & freedom to him but still that doesn’t take away from the fact that he tends to his rash & aggressive behaviour every now & then especially during my visit home. What gives me further hurt is that might be extending to my mother as well. My sister being the smart ass she is, gives in to his tantrums in order to get her own pocket money & course of life.

To summarise, I cannot bring up myself ever in life to love or respect him or even probably care genuinely but I cannot ignore him completely since he happens to be my father & still the head of the family.

I do hope that he realises that in behaving so he is losing out on so much & creating so much negativity around! But I know for sure that despite realising his mistakes he will never be able to accept his mistakes nor change it – these are the typical characteristics of “Indian Male Superiority Complex” syndrome which is incurable in my understanding & I shall not be victim of! Even if it means I will need to marry a foreigner & live my life outside my country now coz I have realised it is unbearable to the extent of being suffocating & painful.
I have seen enough victims of it – male & female who I have no respect for honestly.

But I would still choose to be & will show everyone to be the happiest & best & most favourite version of myself in this life itself.

How I feel about my career right now!

I feel good for sure!

Started off from Tata – got to do alot of things – Travel, Retail, Cross Functional & Cross geographical Experience. Definitely as good as Baby taking tiny steps & trying to grow while falling & trying still.

Moved into the pure B2C space & thankfully Technology & Digital Space – couple of Aggressive companies. Quite enjoyed the roles, work, speed, adrenaline rush but disappointed with people treatment & I don’t think it is to do with being Women or something, just they consider Manpower as Labour probably!

Then got to work in Pure Product Development & Ownership role which I feel closest with, got to build a nascent product into shape & share it with world as well. Great feeling. Felt myself undergo personal & professional transformations, understood my likings better, my style of work better, my zone/space better.

Trying to move into a bigger Global Space which can help me create bigger impact while enhancing my learnings.

There are people who call me non – sticky, not a long term player but who cares, I have always gone by my inner call & done things which are non conventional possibly that will lead me to do something disruptive in true sense 🙂 #Don’t worry


Aage ka Raasta Nahi Mil Raha hai…

Aajkal hai bas ek hi Uljhan meri… Mil rahi nahi disha woh ..
Jise Lekar chal dun aage bas..

Aati hain baatein bahut dhyaan mein..
Aati si hain bas…  Rukti nahi… Basti nahi…
Aakar chali si jati hain…

Kehti rehti hun ki ruko… 2-4 baat karlo… shayad main tumse kuch seek lun..
Ya Phir tumhe samjha dun… ek doosre ko mana lein – dosti kar lein..
Par Naa – hota sa hi nahi …

Apni si lagti hai jo baat…jo gaane, jo log..
Bas man behla leti hun thodi der unke paas/saath..
Par mil nahi rahi wo shanti jo kar sake mujhe shaant….

Chahti hun bas itna ki le chale ye raah mujhe bas wahan…
Jahan ho meri manzil aur apne aap ko pa sakun..
Apne aap ko pasand kar sakun..
Hansun, Muskuraun, Relax Rahun aur baki log ko bhi yehi bol sakun…

RIP Leila Seth!

Got news a bit late.. very saddened by the loss to Indian Law & Social Society.

Her book “Life On Balance” gave me a glimpse of her life & more than that gave me confidence to tread my path with all the confidence & conviction as per my beliefs.

A chance meeting during Bandra literary festival in 2015 shall be something I will always cherish – Thanks for all your contribution towards the society as a whole & for being an inspiration always. Will remember always in good & bad times. Leila-Seth

Let the Performance Come from the Gut!

I remember my Mom being an amazing Singer & Singing being her only indulgence apart from the daily household work!

I also remember her being very nervous before every performance & her Sir + co-performers giving her confidence before & during performance.
What I distinctly remember is that after every performance, the audience used to be stunned with her melody.

I used to wonder how – when she’s so nervous & I have hardly seen her practice at home, how do people go WOW with her voice.

Its much later that I realised, that performances need to come from the Gut to make an impact! Let it be an honest performance for it to be a great performance!

Also a quick mention for Pooja Sharma aka Draupadi for coming back from Hiatus.. Thank God & Thank You!

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