What do I fear most..

I think losing my Optimism, Hope for something Great..

This thought popped up while watching Before Sunset – which happens every time that it makes you think about your own life coz it just touches the chords of your heart so very easily with its simplicity & realism..

I think its truly great to have a great conversation with someone who gets you without making much effort coz you connect at a greater level which is difficult to express in words but still is BEST experienced only through words ūüôā

I feel sad about not having met THE ONE but I also feel good about not giving in for mediocre or to social pressure or to almost right ! I know there is nothing like PERFECT but I deserve to at least feel that this is the BEST I can get & can be convinced about giving My Best no matter how Bad it gets ahead!

But I also know for sure – I do not want to endup being sad or bitter or lost or rude or cynical or boring or pessimist or disappointed or dissatisfied! Nothing of those..

I want to be Happy, Satisfied, Raring to Go, Calm, Energetic, Positive & Loved! #GodSpeed #Amen


My recent take on Travelling

I think what pains me immensely these days is that how Travel has become a thoughtless activity that people indulge into when they have 1 day or 2 days off or longer vacation at spare.
They just seem to indulge into it without really understanding the true meaning of travel & its benefits. Maybe its a one way opinion as a lot of my critics in the past have commented. However, when I talk to these people who claim to love travelling & indulge into regularly I find & feel they have simply wasted money & their time.
They have gone & done something without taking all the wonderful things which travelling to a new place has to offer.

This gives rise to a lot of unwanted providers or travel agents/portals/marketplaces which are also formed by people who feel they know travelling & business so why not to bring them together. These providers become the eyes of these travellers who do not know where they want to see.

Not taking away from some of the great travelling experiences which are provided by some great individuals, providers. Ganga Panga by Mohit Midha is one of the closest which has achieved greatness plus our Spiti Trip became great because of people’s enthusiasm, great place.

However recently after coming back from Bhutan Trip – I didn’t feel that achievement or euphoria perhaps coz of the company in travel or because I was stressed due to recent office stuff. The place was great, met some lovely people, had loads of road travel which I love, however I did not feel top of the world but felt tired & didn’t feel like going to travel again soon ūüė¶ which is very unlike me. Am I getting too old?

I think I would like to travel to more fascinating places with more fascinating people who also share the love of travel & like to encourage one another to explore more & better in a not so obvious way. People who are a lot more accommodating & giving plus not demanding are the kind of people I know to get along well with on long term.

Am sure there are more wonderful trips coming! ūüôā

A few important learnings which came my way : Patience is not about waiting but what you do while waiting, having calmness is a sign of great strength, there is nothing more important than your work – having complete dedication towards is the ultimate way towards Nirvana. Be a Professional & one can hardly go wrong!

Current Stage – Consolidation!

This is how I would like to see this stage as – Consolidating my health, work, personality amongst all priorities.

Work – its going rather well so far (touchwood) with UX & Digital Business responsibilities & got an amazing Boss to interact daily with as a friend, mentor, guide.

Health – Solid effort going in here & do not want this to get impacted in any way. Reduced frame-size, increased strength, stamina, daily workout sessions with right set of positive & vibrant people is extremely helpful.

Personality – I have been wanting to become a more calm, controlled, serene, fewer words, more giving, letting go person for some time now. I am glad to say that I do see with time, people, efforts – things are moving in that direction.

Household responsibilities along with eating habits – This was a major cause of worry in my case as I was quite lazy & careless like a (tom) boy towards this. However with time, effort & people again – I have learnt to take care of these things as they are extremely crucial to lead a happy & balanced life. Now I eat, sleep on time – somehow if I can change the food at office – it will be perfect.

Friends/People/Family – With maturity & experience, I have learnt to appreciate the kind of people I want to have around me while keeping others at bay. Gone are the days when I used to get confused among friends, situations & used to find myself gasping for escape. Glad to have found more solace here – Finding my Man is the only gap waiting to be fulfilled.

My startup/business – Having my own Digital Consultancy is what has come as an ideal solution for me – Let us see if I do this or something else. The school + studio + organic farm + yoga retreat house Dream also awaits. Refinement is awaiting & other pieces waiting to fall into place.

Travel/Photography – This is the only spot I feel am not doing 100% justice to given the amount of travel & clicking I used to do till 1 year back when every week I would just take off locally and every 2-3 months some place out. However, this piece is also getting consolidated now by pushing me into doing only great memorable trips solo or with 1 or 2 people I really wish to be with. Am sure my clicking results have grown & will continue to amaze everyone!



I wish to be..

I wish to be a fewer words person…
Even if there are umpteen feelings, emotions rising inside…

I want to be balanced & serene & softer/mellower…
Even if any situation demands me to have reactions…

I want to be womanlike graceful & aesthetically class apart…
Even if people around me fail to appreciate it same time..

Wish to be far more travelled, exposed to different people/cultures,
Even if it takes far more effort & time to make plans & execute them..

I wish to be with People who let me be and at the same time inspire me to grow..
Even if it means exploring wide & waiting for right selection while being without one/few…

I wish to be self sufficient emotionally, financially, socially..& feel confident, assured about it..
Even if it means telling yourself to be strong every day,moment!

(Dedicated towards all the women in daily lives who achieve this consistently knowingly & KungFu Panda 3 which thought once again to have belief in all the goodness around)12799105_10153943476592731_8114143395436703172_n

Why I do Photography?!

My first stint with camera I remember is clicking as a kid with my Dad’s mirror-less Kodak camera with a roll inside from the age of 9. The reason was that it helped me grab a frame that would go down for eternity – as I had seen plenty of family albums with black & white images – weddings, picnics, festivals, new born kids in studios, old family patriarchs in their rocking chairs. However the ones that held my attention for longest and I considered closest were the candid images – with my dad/mom/dadi/baba,etc. looking carelessly or sometimes not even looking at the camera. Yet they came across as loveable people – that made me love them more.

Coming back to my stint with camera Рthough I started at age of 9 however I did not have much control over what I shot so I felt in a way I was not improving nor learning much. I did not continue it till I came in MBA course. Here as well I did not have a camera however I felt great almost high when I saw some great images of my batch-mates and that is how I came to know about DSLR Рas late as 2010.

{Late it was given the international scenario however in India – the photograph enthusiasts had started owning one since 2007-08.}

All I remember is that the first thing I wanted to buy for myself after MBA from my own money, even more than good food & clothes, was a DSLR. I felt it would be my VENT for my creative energies, it would act as my correspondent for whatever good I had to share with the world apart from my professional career where not much was in my control. It would also be my friend when I travel, meet new people, look at things differently or just when I didn’t want to express anything. And voila, it has been the best friend & companion in the world so far. Words are not enough to thank it – the fact that I can go back and revisit all that we saw together & cherish memories or better find new facts while staring at a rare image makes everything more special about it.

I had to push myself to go and click every weekend in the beginning, even silly events, not so happening places, disinterested people but the importance was on building a routine, a group of self critics who push each other and in the process share some good stuff. However, that was just a beginning.

My real turning point came during April – June 2012 when I visited Cape Town and Kashmir, I saw my photography grow by leaps and bounds. Combined with a new zoom lens, beautiful landscapes, relaxed atmosphere I just delved and delved into clicking what I loved – landscapes, candid, street. The results for the first time surprised me and I knew I have something good to share with everyone else for sure.

Post that – it was Spiti that brought good from me, Delhi Archeological buildings, recently Kasol, Northeast/Northwest India and some product/candid/street shoots that I really enjoyed while exploring. Exposure to Steve Mccurry’s work makes me push more & more. Sadly 90% of other people I find in this space are simply either wannabes, non-inspiring, ill – informed about their talents and for some reason I have not been able to tell any of them honestly what I think about their work.

Why I still click – coz it has become an inseparable aspect of my life, it helps me capture something that connects my inside with the world outside and keep it for eternity, it helps me in expressing my feeling about my surroundings, interactions with people, my perspective in one frame without saying a word and perhaps also share with the world.

I wish & hope I get to cover every inch worth on the Earth & capture everything that connects with me by my camera-mushy!

Goa Trip – December 2012

That was Goa for me in Dec12 … from 7th to 9th December..

Starting from the Aarambol beach we landed at – the food and lime fresh soda was awesum! The characters were amazing! A Juggler, a hippie who was organizing sessions on relationships (my friend told me about him), a man who was playing flute by the beach, a group of hippies doing meditation at the sunset..What do u have to say for that! Brilliant…is a small word and it is just starting to happen!

We head back from Arambol after the sunset and some shopping..Goto Curlies..do some clicking of each other..and the evening gets better! After having already ordered couple of drink and getting complimentary cigrattes, we meet 3 Hyd guys..one of them did all the talking and the other two occasional putting in a word or two..Whatever, we talked and discussed a possibility of attending David Guetta the next day..and decide to depart..BTW the “hummus” was addicting..

Next morning, after getting up late we(I hope I mentioned by we I mean San and me) go for the breakfast by the beach as decided. Now here is where the fun starts, San wants to drive the bike..and decides to take us both to Anjuna beach. Me, of course terrified initially with the idea, thought she was doing okay! And den at the parking, she finds the accelerator in place of brakes when it came to stopping the vehicle..! And Boom we go..We bump into an already parked scooter which happened to be of the stall owner next to us.. Now going by the Goan standards what came next was very much expected..They refused to let us go without paying 700 bucks!! All they had for a claim was a scratch (made before or after) on the handle..I was adamant Рno giving, San was her considerate best! But that later..

As we moved inside, we found an open place at the end of the market – must be serving terrible food (which we later experienced) as despite the great view, there was no audience! San too liked the place and we decided to eat there only. The view of the place just blew me away! It was straight out from movies..Clear sky, blue open sea with sun glittering and spreading the golden shimmering glow all over, eagles flying above the water making it a “breath taking view”! The food as expected was bad but the view and the breeze more than made up for it..


Going back where we left our incomplete fight – the man and his angry wife wanted the amount at all costs, so we decided that we will give as much the mechanic says. The man ¬†agreed and we left for (his own) mechanic. We knew he will make the mechanic say more or equal the amount! Still going after him, we saw a narrow lane to the right, which we had previously taken for our photo shots and I TURNED!! Hillarious it was, we went on going ahead and still imagining we might bump into him ahead decided to go far away to Fort Aguada! But amazingly bollywooddy it felt, Bhagam Bhag! ūüôā

Fort Aguada had some more nice moments to add, of course the drive was amazingly smooth and pleasant. Next to the fort was the lighthouse where we didn’t see any public going. We were (atleast I was)¬†skeptical¬†still decided to give it a shot..Took tickets, went up and found a great view to our waiting. One side was the Fort and the sea while the other side we had the Calangute Beach with its shacks and subjects..and a sun setting in between..Breeze was amazing! And we found ourselves deciding to wait till the Sunset (I think San decided coz she thought it was better than staying on the fort!) .. It was awesome..San decided to sleep..I was calm as meditating..We striked some nice conversation too!! All in all – another high point of our trip..

After returning, we decided to meet the guys again and go partying!! So one crazy night of party followed starting from 8pm and lasting till 7am..We began with a search for a nice place near Calangute/Baga for dinner and drinks..followed it up with ending up at shacks in Anjuna where various rounds of weed and tequila followed..I was high.. ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬† ¬†I wanted to go walking on the beach so I took Carlos and San alongwith me for the walk, another amazing scene I could capture in my mind – Pitch dark sky with sparkling stars, noisy sea and shadows of coconut treas! Wow…

We followed it up with a rave party where everyone was very much upto their behavior, reached hotel and crashed around 7:10am..

We woke up around 10:30-11am..got ready and left for Vasco via Panji..Thanks to a local friend I connected with, who showed us an amazing bakery (yea, my love for food never dies), a great harbor view and a couple of nice churches..

The first one being around 400 years old, had a¬†cemetery¬†by its side! Spooky but then very quiet despite all the din coming from outside..The other church happened to be on an island on the outskirts which was connected by a bridge..When we reached there, we saw a funeral in procession, carols singing, sad relatives – another spooky moment! But as San said it – “how was it, that we happened to be there when the funeral of an unknown was happening, where the place just played a carol followed by the procession..” .. It seemed a little destined..

Goa Trip – Amazing you were to me! Thank you for happening..Come soon again!!

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