Some Blabber More..

Last night dinner with my cousin.. a few thoughts came up, which I have been thinking a lot lately for self improvement, became clearer & stronger further :

  • Confidence to look inside by being objective came from doing decently well at WORK – which is probably not Ideal or recommended but in my case it had to be via Work because it plays an extremely important role in my life.
  • Piush had alot to do with giving this confidence & then mentoring me to look further inside to become a better person – though his recommendations were from work aspects but its not surprising that exactly same qualities are required by me in current life – To be Analytical, Amiable 🙂 always..
  • Sneha’s constant response to my blabbers, traits, behaviours, words were more than helpful – Probably I am indebted to her for Life for this. I used to always think that am high on empathy, concern for others & outward looking while honestly I was only being selfish in all my pursuits by only expressing what I felt was right while ACTUALLY NOT realising what the other person is saying or wanting to say or means or feels. This has been a revelation of sorts to be equally if not more concerned about what the other person is saying, feeling, thinking, wanting.
  • Probably all my relationships have gone wrong at some points coz of my constant need to control & looking inward only – Mac, Rahul, Appy, Shweta Di, Nakul are a few I can think FirstHand.
  • Am not very good at Letting Go! It comes from Impatience, not trusting others to do the Right, not giving space – COMPLETE NO NO!
  • I was not very good at having difficult conversations – but have to learn the art of having a difficult conversation in a calm & peaceful way.
  • I did fear losing others and myself a lot – majorly Fear was making all the decisions which is not the Right way always! 


What do I fear most..

I think losing my Optimism, Hope for something Great..

This thought popped up while watching Before Sunset – which happens every time that it makes you think about your own life coz it just touches the chords of your heart so very easily with its simplicity & realism..

I think its truly great to have a great conversation with someone who gets you without making much effort coz you connect at a greater level which is difficult to express in words but still is BEST experienced only through words 🙂

I feel sad about not having met THE ONE but I also feel good about not giving in for mediocre or to social pressure or to almost right ! I know there is nothing like PERFECT but I deserve to at least feel that this is the BEST I can get & can be convinced about giving My Best no matter how Bad it gets ahead!

But I also know for sure – I do not want to endup being sad or bitter or lost or rude or cynical or boring or pessimist or disappointed or dissatisfied! Nothing of those..

I want to be Happy, Satisfied, Raring to Go, Calm, Energetic, Positive & Loved! #GodSpeed #Amen

Let the Performance Come from the Gut!

I remember my Mom being an amazing Singer & Singing being her only indulgence apart from the daily household work!

I also remember her being very nervous before every performance & her Sir + co-performers giving her confidence before & during performance.
What I distinctly remember is that after every performance, the audience used to be stunned with her melody.

I used to wonder how – when she’s so nervous & I have hardly seen her practice at home, how do people go WOW with her voice.

Its much later that I realised, that performances need to come from the Gut to make an impact! Let it be an honest performance for it to be a great performance!

Also a quick mention for Pooja Sharma aka Draupadi for coming back from Hiatus.. Thank God & Thank You!

Uncha Utho..

Uncha utho…. Upar utho…

Milenge bahut jo kheechenge tumko andar…

Udaan bharo itni door ki…

Chhalaang lagao man bhar ki….

Ki koi chhoo bhi na paye…

Ki koi pakad na paye….

Hona wahi hai jo hoke rahega..

Karo wahi jo dil kahe…

What & Who I wanted to be as a kid..

Looking back 20-25 years back into my mind palace of the younger me – just for fun or to just check how far I have arrived in the true/correct direction, I do not feel very different or overwhelmed in any happy/sad way.

I remember as a 10 year old wanting to be good, I wanted to excel, compete & come first in Sports, Theatre, painting, studies, being loved, looking smart, etc. etc.
So yeah wanting to be best in short!

As I grew & figured out a way to do graduation, PG, job – I realised different meanings of being best or successful or happy – they were a lot more Convoluted & Grey! I also realised the importance of having different perspectives & respecting all while peacefully keeping your point of view or beliefs without hurting others.

I learnt to bring a lot more from your inner self not just in terms of physical strength, talents, mental capability but something bigger & eternal – your INNER SELF which is difficult to describe & explain but the one who connects to it & listens to it always is a WINNER throughout. I realised it is more important to give than to receive, that one has to ultimately LetGo everything for everything to eventually come back to him/her.

I learnt that it is critical to be more positive, warm, smiling, energetic, motivated, friendly everyday basis & keep your darkness/distractions/sadness/confusions at bay. The few questions that tend to keep honking will get answered on its own.

I realised happily that there is so much beauty in this world to explore via music, food, places, photography, dance, movies, people, art, architecture, history, etc. etc. They are like museums to go & take a walk & come back feeling so much better & learned.

Most importantly I have learned the value of Patience – of having an endless supply of it in all times – good & bad. The ones I love & admire have abundance of it & have benefitted from it time & again. Life has taught me its importance even if I have few miles to cover in mastering its art.

Health & delving into its science has come as another big reminder.

Am not sure how proud & happy the 10 year old Misha would be by looking at Today’s Misha but she would sure be fascinated at the journey travelled so far by her older version with so many artefacts that were beyond the imagination of her younger version. But beyond anything she will pat today’s Misha’s back that she has managed to be the same honest & simple human being true to herself despite all odds! 100/100 for that 🙂

Lots more to come!



I wish to be..

I wish to be a fewer words person…
Even if there are umpteen feelings, emotions rising inside…

I want to be balanced & serene & softer/mellower…
Even if any situation demands me to have reactions…

I want to be womanlike graceful & aesthetically class apart…
Even if people around me fail to appreciate it same time..

Wish to be far more travelled, exposed to different people/cultures,
Even if it takes far more effort & time to make plans & execute them..

I wish to be with People who let me be and at the same time inspire me to grow..
Even if it means exploring wide & waiting for right selection while being without one/few…

I wish to be self sufficient emotionally, financially, socially..& feel confident, assured about it..
Even if it means telling yourself to be strong every day,moment!

(Dedicated towards all the women in daily lives who achieve this consistently knowingly & KungFu Panda 3 which thought once again to have belief in all the goodness around)12799105_10153943476592731_8114143395436703172_n

Old Times – Old Charm

There is an old charm to the old world – very difficult to describe it, its something you feel. Its hidden deep and many a times marked by the dogmas of hindrance, inertia, not giving in however once these are set a side you find a deep aroma of peace, love, warmth, compassion, nostalgia and attachment – my growing up years in smaller cities & working in rural areas have given me something to cherish forever.

It is very different from the modern world where everything is out in the open & too much expressed or exposed where kids grow up too soon & know everything too well before they should.

It is a world where kids like Swami grow up – oblivion to the real world and only worrying about their mango trees, summer holidays & friends sprees. It is a world where kids truly dream in the night and wonder if that can be really achieved.

This world also has tough times and especially has tough people, situations and heartbreaking/disillusioning/dark phases. But that is how a true person of matter is made.

It is a beautiful world where trees are green, birds & butterfly fly free, rain,heat,winter come in shared proportions where a smile is met with a genuine smile and a Hi with a courteous Hello.
It is a Good World My Friend.

Dedicated to my Mom, Dadi & Naniji – who taught me how to appreciate the beauty of those little things.

(Just thought of this while going through Pandeymonium – autobiography of Piyush Pandey & especially his childhood chapter, the only person I feel truly knows Marketing in Indian Consumer Commercial Space)

Why I do Photography?!

My first stint with camera I remember is clicking as a kid with my Dad’s mirror-less Kodak camera with a roll inside from the age of 9. The reason was that it helped me grab a frame that would go down for eternity – as I had seen plenty of family albums with black & white images – weddings, picnics, festivals, new born kids in studios, old family patriarchs in their rocking chairs. However the ones that held my attention for longest and I considered closest were the candid images – with my dad/mom/dadi/baba,etc. looking carelessly or sometimes not even looking at the camera. Yet they came across as loveable people – that made me love them more.

Coming back to my stint with camera – though I started at age of 9 however I did not have much control over what I shot so I felt in a way I was not improving nor learning much. I did not continue it till I came in MBA course. Here as well I did not have a camera however I felt great almost high when I saw some great images of my batch-mates and that is how I came to know about DSLR – as late as 2010.

{Late it was given the international scenario however in India – the photograph enthusiasts had started owning one since 2007-08.}

All I remember is that the first thing I wanted to buy for myself after MBA from my own money, even more than good food & clothes, was a DSLR. I felt it would be my VENT for my creative energies, it would act as my correspondent for whatever good I had to share with the world apart from my professional career where not much was in my control. It would also be my friend when I travel, meet new people, look at things differently or just when I didn’t want to express anything. And voila, it has been the best friend & companion in the world so far. Words are not enough to thank it – the fact that I can go back and revisit all that we saw together & cherish memories or better find new facts while staring at a rare image makes everything more special about it.

I had to push myself to go and click every weekend in the beginning, even silly events, not so happening places, disinterested people but the importance was on building a routine, a group of self critics who push each other and in the process share some good stuff. However, that was just a beginning.

My real turning point came during April – June 2012 when I visited Cape Town and Kashmir, I saw my photography grow by leaps and bounds. Combined with a new zoom lens, beautiful landscapes, relaxed atmosphere I just delved and delved into clicking what I loved – landscapes, candid, street. The results for the first time surprised me and I knew I have something good to share with everyone else for sure.

Post that – it was Spiti that brought good from me, Delhi Archeological buildings, recently Kasol, Northeast/Northwest India and some product/candid/street shoots that I really enjoyed while exploring. Exposure to Steve Mccurry’s work makes me push more & more. Sadly 90% of other people I find in this space are simply either wannabes, non-inspiring, ill – informed about their talents and for some reason I have not been able to tell any of them honestly what I think about their work.

Why I still click – coz it has become an inseparable aspect of my life, it helps me capture something that connects my inside with the world outside and keep it for eternity, it helps me in expressing my feeling about my surroundings, interactions with people, my perspective in one frame without saying a word and perhaps also share with the world.

I wish & hope I get to cover every inch worth on the Earth & capture everything that connects with me by my camera-mushy!

As you are approaching 30!

Its just a number – Yes I agree, Age is a number and it depends on you how much you let it impact yourself.

However, with Age comes experience and perspective more importantly that helps you have an overall approach over important matters. It also helps you to filter things better – what is important from what is not.

For 30 specifically – I can share following specific unique changes one experiences in one’s life however remain common if you compare everyone else’s lives as a sample case :

  • You learn to spend time on your own
  • You get better grip of your professional and personal career
  • You have finally realised the importance of your family in your life
  • Your no. of friends get fewer but friendships deeper
  • You have realised what Love is really about, for yourself
  • You are wiser and calmer than your early 20s
  • You have some more financial independence
  • You have got a knock – knock to keep your physical and mental health intact
  • A bunch of your true friends have turned out to be WHAT?!
  • You have tried and tested most of the things that fascinated you as a student – money, luxury, good food, wine, etc. though not satisfied your buds completely
  • Most of us have found our mojo or passions in our lives – even if it is as simple as being a family person or just being happy all the time
  • In the end its about being yourself – having a lot of fun while doing anything anything in life!


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