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Some Blabber More..

Last night dinner with my cousin.. a few thoughts came up, which I have been thinking a lot lately for self improvement, became clearer & stronger further :

  • Confidence to look inside by being objective came from doing decently well at WORK – which is probably not Ideal or recommended but in my case it had to be via Work because it plays an extremely important role in my life.
  • Piush had alot to do with giving this confidence & then mentoring me to look further inside to become a better person – though his recommendations were from work aspects but its not surprising that exactly same qualities are required by me in current life – To be Analytical, Amiable πŸ™‚ always..
  • Sneha’s constant response to my blabbers, traits, behaviours, words were more than helpful – Probably I am indebted to her for Life for this. I used to always think that am high on empathy, concern for others & outward looking while honestly I was only being selfish in all my pursuits by only expressing what I felt was right while ACTUALLY NOT realising what the other person is saying or wanting to say or means or feels. This has been a revelation of sorts to be equally if not more concerned about what the other person is saying, feeling, thinking, wanting.
  • Probably all my relationships have gone wrong at some points coz of my constant need to control & looking inward only – Mac, Rahul, Appy, Shweta Di, Nakul are a few I can think FirstHand.
  • Am not very good at Letting Go! It comes from Impatience, not trusting others to do the Right, not giving space – COMPLETE NO NO!
  • I was not very good at having difficult conversations – but have to learn the art of having a difficult conversation in a calm & peaceful way.
  • I did fear losing others and myself a lot – majorly Fear was making all the decisions which is not the Right way always! 

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How was the last year 2015?

When I sit back and look at how the last 12 months/365 days went – I think it was great! Great from learning, personal growth & most importantly getting closer to the ultimate dream of being happy and peaceful πŸ™‚

It began with carrying forward of 2014 learnings of Geeta & Yoga of getting closer to oneself & focussing on the pertinent question of “Who am I?”, focussing on one’s Karma, one’s present moment, focussing on one’s breathing to relax among many others.
There were some personal setbacks too which I choose to not mention here.

Most importantly – I got back to doing Gym & playing TT which helped me in achieving a lot better mental + physical health. My mood swings were much more in control & I could focus on my work & myself a lot more.
On another important achievement, my role developed into something better than I hoped & I believe I can take it into something bigger & better from here having realised my forte` a lot better now – Digital Marketing & Product Development.

What I hope to focus more from here on are –
1) Health – I want to achieve a lot more fitter body & want to be more strong mentally which is more fearless & focussed along with being kind, calm, sweet.
2) Startup – I want to save for the same along with developing my model & wish to gather a core team as well.
3) Travel & Click – As much, as far, as frequent, with as many new nice people possible – Abroad/Hill Stations/Rajasthan/MP/AP on my list
4) Financial Savings – to build it further to give me more options in future
5) Personal Individual Family/Life Partner – I strongly believe now, it will be answered soon now as soon as I reach where am supposed to πŸ™‚ Just need to stop seeking to find the answers – LetGo! I also wish to read more & wide now.

These things pretty much emphasise my short term & long term goals.

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Why I do Photography?!

My first stint with camera I remember is clicking as a kid with my Dad’s mirror-less Kodak camera with a roll inside from the age of 9. The reason was that it helped me grab a frame that would go down for eternity – as I had seen plenty of family albums with black & white images – weddings, picnics, festivals, new born kids in studios, old family patriarchs in their rocking chairs. However the ones that held my attention for longest and I considered closest were the candid images – with my dad/mom/dadi/baba,etc. looking carelessly or sometimes not even looking at the camera. Yet they came across as loveable people – that made me love them more.

Coming back to my stint with camera – though I started at age of 9Β however I did not have much control over what I shot so I felt in a way I was not improving nor learning much. I did not continue it till I came in MBA course. Here as well I did not have a camera however I felt great almost high when I saw some great images of my batch-mates and that is how I came to know about DSLR – as late as 2010.

{Late it was given the international scenario however in India – the photograph enthusiasts had started owning one since 2007-08.}

All I remember is that the first thing I wanted to buy for myself after MBA from my own money, even more than good food & clothes, was a DSLR. I felt it would be my VENT for my creative energies, it would act as my correspondent for whatever good I had to share with the world apart from my professional career where not much was in my control. It would also be my friend when I travel, meet new people, look at things differently or just when I didn’t want to express anything. And voila, it has been the best friend & companion in the world so far. Words are not enough to thank it – the fact that I can go back and revisit all that we saw together & cherish memories or better find new facts while staring at a rare image makes everything more special about it.

I had to push myself to go and click every weekend in the beginning, even silly events, not so happening places, disinterested people but the importance was on building a routine, a group of self critics who push each other and in the process share some good stuff. However, that was just a beginning.

My real turning point came during April – June 2012 when I visited Cape Town and Kashmir, I saw my photography grow by leaps and bounds. Combined with a new zoom lens, beautiful landscapes, relaxed atmosphere I just delved and delved into clicking what I loved – landscapes, candid, street. The results for the first time surprised me and I knew I have something good to share with everyone else for sure.

Post that – it was Spiti that brought good from me, Delhi Archeological buildings, recently Kasol, Northeast/Northwest India and some product/candid/street shoots that I really enjoyed while exploring. Exposure to Steve Mccurry’s work makes me push more & more. Sadly 90% of other people I find in this space are simply either wannabes, non-inspiring, ill – informed about their talents and for some reason I have not been able to tell any of them honestly what I think about their work.

Why I still click – coz it has become an inseparable aspect of my life, it helps me capture something that connects my inside with the world outside and keep it for eternity, it helps me in expressing my feeling about my surroundings, interactions with people, my perspective in one frame without saying a word and perhaps also share with the world.

I wish & hope I get to cover every inch worth on the Earth & capture everything that connects with me by my camera-mushy!

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Every House I lived spoke a story of its own…!

I associate alot of my life to things & people around me like everybody else. However the difference in my case is a dash bit more of attachment, emotional, sentimental value..
So as a case I associate alot of my good or bad times with the houses I have stayed in.. The first one is the IFFCO quarters that my father got after his posting.. it was a small cozy apartment of 2 bedrooms, 1 hall, kitchen, bathroom, verandah, garden, garage, kitchen garden separate. I have all my childhood memories from this place! So much so that all my dreams associated with home are also visualized here only.. I see my Dadi in my dreams here only..

Next was the second township house I lived in Ahmedabad with my family & however bigger it was – I associate it with alot of changes it brought in our family & my growing up years! Next was hostel for 2 years that I don’t associate living with, just experiencing & surviving while learning! Then comes the Bombay home in Andheri that I hated initially but happened to like in the latter part thanks to alot of good times spent with my friends, family there! Hubli home was more a makeshift temporary arrangement for 6 mths that never turned into a home but yeah it was cozy, nice, breezy & I quite liked it..

Post coming to Delhi, the first home in Saket I found was disdained by one & all though sufficient for me but it did not seem appealing πŸ™‚ The current house set up has taken well to me so far and have been able to find some kinda stability with it & hence myself.. Life seems likeable & I quite like coming here & spending my time…I like inviting my family here & living with them – the bright market behind has a very important role to play πŸ™‚

Thank You God for all the happiness you provided..

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Nostalgia… (Missing Bombay & My Family..)

Last night and today are proving to be quite empty days..

Not that empty days are not good…After having alot of action oriented days, its good to take a break in between and re-organize your thoughts..

The last few days after resigning from Airtel have been great (close to two months) – Family was here, I was reading Geeta, doing Yoga, Planning for a new Job..
And prospects of a new job as well as the first few days have been great – I see myself enjoying the independence and ownership, young, creative, vibrant atmosphere.. Possibility of rising quickly and making myself a valuable resource..
Quite alot of action and possibility of a great action oriented life…

Now the time is to move in this direction of startup role that I have taken and make something great out of it…Along with I also need to plan on doing something of my own, exec MBA, travel plans of Europe & Australia… making a great body, mind, soul – staying +ve always & following Geeta gyan..

Just it is good and sweet to admit in between how you miss the good days of past especially the Mumbai days when I was truely on my own and had alot of time on my hands which I put to maximum use.. Salsa, clicking around, exploring around, eating at new places… NGOs.. did so much and so much πŸ™‚ Good days !

However as decided, now time is to make something great out of my life and pursue the direction taken wholeheartedly, with dedication, courage, optimism!

Let God be there with the strongest..!