Some Blabber More..

Last night dinner with my cousin.. a few thoughts came up, which I have been thinking a lot lately for self improvement, became clearer & stronger further :

  • Confidence to look inside by being objective came from doing decently well at WORK – which is probably not Ideal or recommended but in my case it had to be via Work because it plays an extremely important role in my life.
  • Piush had alot to do with giving this confidence & then mentoring me to look further inside to become a better person – though his recommendations were from work aspects but its not surprising that exactly same qualities are required by me in current life – To be Analytical, Amiable 🙂 always..
  • Sneha’s constant response to my blabbers, traits, behaviours, words were more than helpful – Probably I am indebted to her for Life for this. I used to always think that am high on empathy, concern for others & outward looking while honestly I was only being selfish in all my pursuits by only expressing what I felt was right while ACTUALLY NOT realising what the other person is saying or wanting to say or means or feels. This has been a revelation of sorts to be equally if not more concerned about what the other person is saying, feeling, thinking, wanting.
  • Probably all my relationships have gone wrong at some points coz of my constant need to control & looking inward only – Mac, Rahul, Appy, Shweta Di, Nakul are a few I can think FirstHand.
  • Am not very good at Letting Go! It comes from Impatience, not trusting others to do the Right, not giving space – COMPLETE NO NO!
  • I was not very good at having difficult conversations – but have to learn the art of having a difficult conversation in a calm & peaceful way.
  • I did fear losing others and myself a lot – majorly Fear was making all the decisions which is not the Right way always! 

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What do I fear most..

I think losing my Optimism, Hope for something Great..

This thought popped up while watching Before Sunset – which happens every time that it makes you think about your own life coz it just touches the chords of your heart so very easily with its simplicity & realism..

I think its truly great to have a great conversation with someone who gets you without making much effort coz you connect at a greater level which is difficult to express in words but still is BEST experienced only through words 🙂

I feel sad about not having met THE ONE but I also feel good about not giving in for mediocre or to social pressure or to almost right ! I know there is nothing like PERFECT but I deserve to at least feel that this is the BEST I can get & can be convinced about giving My Best no matter how Bad it gets ahead!

But I also know for sure – I do not want to endup being sad or bitter or lost or rude or cynical or boring or pessimist or disappointed or dissatisfied! Nothing of those..

I want to be Happy, Satisfied, Raring to Go, Calm, Energetic, Positive & Loved! #GodSpeed #Amen

StartUp Advantages – Found My Solace of Split Personalities!

Startups can be almost like On-ground Battles where warriors (I hope am in this category), soldiers, Army Generals come out with their weapons & unleash their true powers, diplomacies, tactics, strategies to simply come out Winning!

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Everyone has a personality, a background, a history, her/his own talents + pursuits + motivations! Its exciting hence to come out a winner in a place where everyone is not fake!

Personally for me, its extremely acceptable environment because I get to be myself & not pretend to be constrained in chains which is the case with big Corporate Houses so Thank God for Startups for coming in our lives!

I know now some things clearly about myself which I will never compromise for anything/anyone :

  • Am extremely High Energy & Enthusiasm, I thrive in it
  • Am ‘almost’ passionate about my Work – I love living for it if I see a purpose in it else I love focussing on my health, family, friends, travel, photography, shopping, movies, music, etc.
  • I love being clear headed for myself + my loved ones & having simple, clarity oriented people around me who speak well, high, progressive & modern
  • I love being around self motivated, energetic & idea oriented people
  • I love new ideas, new projects
  • I have my own ways of managing things, people & situations and I like keeping it that way – Open to learnings from People I appreciate & Like but should be careful about the latter to not do it too much as well
  • I can’t take bullshit & not very good with managing that – got to working on defining the boundaries again & ensuring both parties honour it fairly
  • I tend to get self critical about my short term goals, long term purpose, even people which at best be avoided – Just #AvoidSocialism at personal level to push a greater purpose

I have also realised post working in StartUps & Corporate world for 7+ years now that the Game is all about Managing People & Yourself Basically. Deliverables, Results & Negotiation Skills, Achievements, KPIs, Projects, Ideas, Success become very subjective & actually more of a result if You manage the former Well !

One more of my recent sure shot finding are about top B-schools in the country having such different cultures of people (and the recent batches have really diluted the value) :

  • XL + IIMC have cooler & people oriented people
  • IIMA have too hard task master oriented people
  • IIMB are too serious, thorough, professional – almost similar breed to ISB
  • Rest are almost similarly inconsequential 😉

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